Category: Intuition (page 2 of 3)

Surrounded by memories (and now, dolls)

I’ve taken tomorrow off work and am excited to have two three day weekends in a row. Luxurious.  I spent much of the night tonight putting up photographs on the walls.  Now most of my bedroom walls, all of my hallway, and part of my living room are covered in art and memories.  I’ve been enjoying looking around my bedroom and seeing glimpses of Granada, Paris, Gibraltar, Glastonbury, Barcelona, and other places I’ve visited and loved.  The colors are soothing and just sitting among it makes me want to TRY to do something creative myself.

With that said, I’m still struggling to figure out where to begin. I have been thinking back to what I actually liked to do as a kid.  I had limited resources but I had dolls and plenty of fabric scraps left over from mom’s and my own sewing.  So I made doll clothes.  Since I’m having trouble getting started on other things, I thought perhaps I will do that. It’s something small enough that I could do some things in bed in front of the TV.

I talked with Andrea a bit tonight about intuitive work and how it links back in to creativity too.  It helped to clarify for me that I do want to register for witch school after all. Eek.

‘Mares

I would love to stop having dreams that entities are attacking me in my sleep, especially because it takes me forever to realize I’m still sleeping. Meanwhile the biting, choking, etc feels so real that I’m surprised to wake up without any marks.

Though, not as surprised as I am when I do.

 

Hand Love, or something

So I had my palms read on Saturday, and the person doing it made a point to mention my libido *four* times and then tell me I needed a lot more “love.”

If you are ever looking for a way to render me speechless and turn me beet red in public, this is the way.

The Journey

It just hit me, why people would work on shedding their desires. I understood it made clearer one’s spiritual path, but I always thought that must an impossible struggle. But I’m realizing the more content you are with yourself, your place in this existence, the less you seek external means of altering your mental state.

We all seek an ecstatic state. We catch fleeting glimpses of this happiness when we supplement our lives with things and behaviors meant to give a quick fix, be it drinking or drugs, buying yourself something, eating something decadent, or even sex. I’m not saying any of these things are bad. They do help for a small while – until you wake up the next morning hungover.

When you realize you can reach a similar state without any external stimulation, it’s less interesting to get there using ‘something’ to make you happier. I’d even say it’s easier to find contentment.

PS – this is not one of those smug ‘look at my wonderful life’ posts intended to make you feel less good about your own. My life is not ideal, and I’m working through some serious, pretty dark issues. But, I am absolutely happy with the progress I have made at this point in my journey.

What a difference a year makes

Geez what a difference a year of focusing on mental state helps. Last year, I bought the hidden vial crucifix like in Cruel Intentions, and now I’m oohing over malas.

 

What we should have been taught in school

 

But coke is kinda creepy…

Wow, mescaline looks wonderful! So beautiful.

http://www.boredpanda.com/how-different-drugs-affect-you-artist-illustrations-art-brian-pollett/

Helpful People

So,.. my bathroom is in my ‘helpful people’ section of the bagua (if you practice feng shui, which I don’t but…).

But, I’ve taken to cleaning my bathroom whenever I’m stressed about work or health stuff with people who have been unhelpful, while telling myself “So-and-so is going to help me with this-and-that today”. Mostly just to destress myself.

Weirdly the person ends up helping me right away every time.

Feeling its pull tonight

 

 

 

Asking for a friend…

So when a mental health professional asks you if you ever see things that other people don’t, “I see dead people” is the wrong answer, right?

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